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halfbloodhill2014-02-25 04:37 pm
clearasil) wrote in halfbloodhill2014-02-25 04:37 pm
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[ Natalie has always been a private person. It might be obvious to those who are especially concerned about her that she hasn't been seen in a couple of days since the quest departure.
What a waste of her last drachma for the month, she thinks.
She doesn't want to bog anyone down with her troubles - there are things far bigger than her happening all around, and she is only one girl, one girl who likes to think she can handle it all, but in truth is unprepared for everything sent her way. The only person worse than Natalie at trying to fool the world is her own father, who she had spoken to via Iris Message just after Leo and the others left.
There are a few signs to her poor state, like two singed targets at the archery range and a trail of smoke that follows her when she finally emerges from her various treks around camp and away from everything else. She leans against a stone column outside of Hecate cabin and pulls her parka hood over her head, hugging herself around her empty stomach.
Your vision might go a little haywire if you approach her, with various dizzying effects. She's having a few control problems. ]
( ooc | preemptive warning for discussion of mental illness as portrayed in her canon. nat isn't entirely clear about the subject. )
What a waste of her last drachma for the month, she thinks.
She doesn't want to bog anyone down with her troubles - there are things far bigger than her happening all around, and she is only one girl, one girl who likes to think she can handle it all, but in truth is unprepared for everything sent her way. The only person worse than Natalie at trying to fool the world is her own father, who she had spoken to via Iris Message just after Leo and the others left.
There are a few signs to her poor state, like two singed targets at the archery range and a trail of smoke that follows her when she finally emerges from her various treks around camp and away from everything else. She leans against a stone column outside of Hecate cabin and pulls her parka hood over her head, hugging herself around her empty stomach.
Your vision might go a little haywire if you approach her, with various dizzying effects. She's having a few control problems. ]
( ooc | preemptive warning for discussion of mental illness as portrayed in her canon. nat isn't entirely clear about the subject. )
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I don't blame any of them. Not really. I don't have many friends, Natalie... People are... scared of me. Ashamed.
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People - people suck. You're nice, really nice, and you're strong enough to've survived this long, this far.
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[Her words are bitter as she runs a hand over her hidden scars on her wrists.]
I'm only alive because of a fluke. If I hadn't gone to the pool...
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[ Numbing herself to all of this never works. ]
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Like I wish I hadn't survived. Like I wish I was dead.
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Is there anything that keeps you alive?
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[Annie's words are harsh, and she wishes they weren't, but there's nothing she can do. It's the truth.]
I'm just waiting for the right time, again.
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I worded that incorrectly, I'm kind of putting my foot in my mouth over and over again today and I just - [ She stops short, realizing what Annie's said. ] What about Percy? And Aqua?
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It's not their lives. It's mine. And I'm stuck on this side of the glass. My family is on the other. And over here... There is nothing for me, here.
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I didn't ... mean for this to head in this direction.
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[Annie lets her sandwich fall into the lake as she stands.]
Look- I'm sorry about your mom. But you don't know what it's like to be in that position. To want to kill yourself. Don't say you have a single clue.